Where You Lead

When Faith Is Weak

Okay, so it’s time to pray. Something is up and I need prayers. I need God’s hand on those I love and those who we’ve chosen to trust in this most important situation. So, what’s the problem?

It hasn’t been so long ago that I turned everything over to God, sat calmly reading my bible passages or praying, and waiting for Him to take care of everything. My faith was strong and I had no trouble being patient as I awaited the news. I was sure the news would be favorable.

It wasn’t. Everything fell apart. He didn’t take care of us the way I’d prayed. Even now, so many months later, I can’t quite figure out what good came of all that. In fact, today’s problems are mostly a continuation – and an expensive continuation, at that – of that terrible outcome.

So now I’m here and trying to pray all over again. I’m trying to believe that God will take care of this, that the previous let down had a reason and that it’s all in His plan. I’m trying to have faith. I’m not at peace as I was before, so I guess my faith isn’t as strong. Does that mean I’ve failed in some way? Does that mean God is not happy with my lack of faith and won’t answer my prayers? I don’t know. Only time will tell that.

In the meantime, I’m left to wonder about this Faith thing. Faith the size of a mustard seed is enough to move a mountain. Yet, my faith hasn’t moved anything. And so I doubt. My faith is weakened.

My prayer, then, is that God renew my faith. I pray that my faith remains strong no matter today’s outcome.